Posts Tagged With: winter

Recent Happenings 2.4.13

Happy monday…

I feel like I should be a little better about actual updates on actual happenings in our life. The idea was spawned from 2 of my friends who came back to blogging (Kacie and Josie) and it was nice to really read what has been going on with them in a platform that is so much more restful than facebook or twitter. I want to be able to go back and read about OUR life too. So… here goes…

We have been trying to find peace in 100 different ways. It seems that peace (the counter balance of stress for us) is something that we were hugely lacking last year. I can’t tell you the number of times that we just collapsed in front of the TV (blast that thing) and didnt talk to each other for 4 hours… just to find our Zen. I dont like that. I dont like that the only place that I can find relaxation is with TV. The funny thing is that TV is actually stimulating… not relaxing. I want to cancel the cable… just because it feels like a drug that zaps my creativity and happiness away… to settle for something completely un-cool. Perhaps Im being a little dramatic but thats just how I am.

Lately Dan and I have been working on peace finding down a lot of different avenues. We are organizing our finances finally. We are keeping a close watch on both business and personal and using spread sheets and mint. It has not exactly made a HUGE change so far, but its only been one month. The one thing I will say for it is that I FEEL more in control, which is half the battle right? We have a small amount of debt and some lofty goals and we want to be able to not only be responsible (in the Dave Ramsey way) but also be brave with our money. One big change… and freeing change… is that we have finally started tithing. It has always bothered me that we dont tithe, especially since we dont go to church and we make more money than the typical american. I want to give back and i felt guilty basically every single month, not giving. We are actually tithing now and it really does make me feel less horrible about myself “Jesus-wise.” I know that Jesus and God dont need my money, but I also know that I dont need it as much as some people do either. (I talk like we are wealthy, which we are not). So thats whats new there.

We are also trying to do yoga more. Yoga is good for the body and it is good for my mind. I feel like my brain is going a million miles a minute and yoga is the only place so far that I have found can calm that beast. its a struggle and im not very good about actually going… but I try.

Veganism is a fight daily. All I want is non-vegan food when we are trying to be vegan. Its yet another beast that I wrestle with. I have found a few AMAZING recipes that help and I will keep fighting. (dont mind last week…. that was a fail :)

On a positive note, now that weddings have stopped and I can get my hands around the to do list that was a mile long, I am finally able to do a few personal projects that I have wanted to do for literally years. That is what this winter will be for me and I couldnt be more excited about it.

<3 b

 

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Week Three

Jan 15: I hate working for someone else. I need to get out. David Gray helps, along with peppermint tea.

Jan 16: Tyler called me. I got drunk.

Jan 17: Day on the couch. Im attempting to make the right phone calls and decisions about Tracy.

Jan 18: Went to Maine with Sam and laughed a lot in the evening. I keep thinking about Tracy.

Jan 19: I came home from work. Today was the public announcement.

Jan 20: Funeral. I didn’t go of course.

Jan 21: SNOW! Around 3-4 inches fell.

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ticking time

tick tock tick tock…

I know that time is passing at the same rate it always is but to me right now it is doing two very different things. It is both standing still and fleeting by.

This rest of the trip is coming, almost looming, and I can’t wait for it to come and then again… I’m dreading it. There is such a duality surrounding the thing that I almost can’t get a grasp on it at all. I can’t wait to spend my days on the water, seeing new things every moment, solving problems, slowing the pace of life, drinking up all that the sea has to offer us. I CAN wait for the stress, the dirty-ness, the fear, the uncomfortable facts about living outside. It’s a catch-22… a good one.

Maine. I have a love-hate relationship with it. (like the trip)

To quote the late Andrew Wyeth, “I prefer winter and fall, when you feel the bone structure of the landscape – the loneliness of it, the dead feeling of winter. Something waits beneath it, the whole story doesn’t show.”

Winter is beautiful here. It is such an awesome thing when the earth is made anew again. Fresh every time the snow falls. It’s blanketed in absolute undeniable beauty often here. We live on the bay and I don’t really know if I can really communicate the crisp clean stark purity that the snow brings. I love it.

then again,

ugh. so much trouble. its freezing here all the time. when they plow, the snow piles are everywhere and they look horrid and oily and brown and really depressing. it makes driving tough and downright dangerous sometimes. my entire body tenses up just with the thought of braving the cold. i am not made for this environment. give me a front porch, a rocking chair, a sun dress, and some sweet tea!

Dan is at a bible study with the men of our church. I am happy he is there. I can’t be his elder or his spiritual leader and I believe that everyone needs someone to teach them and lead them. Iron sharpening iron… I want him to continue to grow as a man of God and I want to glean from that. I miss him though.

Time is passing. I hope I’m consciously living in today and not always in the future. Just a thought.

you are worth more

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on a lighter note

ITS SO COLD HERE!!! cold and icy and wintery

We went over to a friends house the other night and I fell down twice walking there on the icy sidewalks. now my shoulder is KILLING me and I refuse to pick up anyone’s heavy items at target. I simply scan their ridiculously heavy buckets of kitty litter and let them do the heavy lifting. They can handle it. The ice was nuts. I probably shouldn’t have been wearing my Toms though. O well…

I finished my Christmas shopping for everyone on my list INCLUDING dan, which is an accomplishment since we are always together. I can’t wait to go home. It’s going to be so sweet to be in good ole’ NC again. Call me if you wanna see us. I want to see you…

also… Dan quit Santa’s workshop too. funny.

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