I guess things are moving right along aren’t they? Dan and I were contemplating our next few months and wanted to make sure we set ourselves up for the best possible situation for our future goals. We thought about all the places we could go, and we thought about staying here in the triangle. As we were undecided, Dan was asked to take on more hours at his job here. When he thought about the prospect of doing that, somthing clicked. “No more office work,” was all he could think about. Why stay here in a job that doesnt stir his soul, live in a pretty apartment and watch Survivor on the computer at night? We could be somewhere else doing something we love.  Makes total sense. We realized that if we could get jobs at the beach, and live RENT FREE in the trailer by the sea, (think Matthew McConaughey) our lives would be greatly improved!

The conversation went something like this:

B: We should sign the lease if were going too. It ends on June 16.

D: Sigh. Are you sure? Maybe we could move to the beach.

B: Im sure we could live in the trailer. Can you work for Joe again?

D: I call him. Do you want to move there? You sure?

B: Sure. Call him. Call you mom and nana too. Im all for it! Lets go!

D: Alright then!

And so we decided to move to the beach a few days ago. We will be moved in and settled no later than June 16th! Come visit if you want. Theres room and itll be awesome!

Kitty Hawk and the OBX, here we come.

Thank you God for spring.

New Years Eve tends to be a let down if I have expectations of going out, looking thin, sparkly, stilleto-ed, drinking cosmos with the girls…. since those things dont tend to flesh out. One, i do not own a cocktail dress, much less a sparkly cocktail dress.  Two, i do not have a crew of girls like sex in the city… Three, i dont tend to have a place to go and enjoy these New Years festivities that seem like iconic fluffy, off in the distance, type of things.

This year we stayed in, enjoyed the company of William, Jamie, Charlie, and Sam. It was just right, not a let down, and relaxing. PLUS i got a little buzz from the alcohol that William provided. I cant complain. Yay for new years eve.

Now back to New Years itself. I love it! I love it because it means a fresh start! I didnt exactly need a fresh start from anything bad in last year but i can say it feels oddly good to have the epic kayak trip in the past… and to be more exact, in the past year! I feel like 2010 has given me newfound power for become Bethany… the more-than-a-kayaker-Bethany, that i see myself as.

Here’s to 2010! *cheers*

2. I think that relationships are the MOST important thing in the whole world and i will put anything and everything off in order to build them. That being said, other than my family, the only relationship that i feel proud of in it’s success is the one i have with my husband. Everything else has either failed miserably or faded away, or simply remains at a “pretty good friends” level and never gets much further. i hate that.

3. My grandpa had a stroke a few years back and since then i have felt like the worst granddaughter in the world. I don’t have the compassion i need to remain normal around him. I almost ignore that it ever happened and just talk to Nana instead.

4. I wish that I could have a big cat as a pet. Big as in Tiger.

5. Oranges, Apples, Kiwis, Bananas, Milk, Ice Cream, Carrots and other seemingly not-so-bad foods, make me sick. 9 times outta 10.

6. Music makes me cry. I friggin love it.

7. Not being in NC has make me miss the state way more than i expected to. I really really miss it. Not Raleigh, but NC itself, as a whole.

8. I adore photography but i know nothing about it. Im working to change that but i believe my self-esteem will always be pretty low on that front.

9. I don’t love kayaking. I love the feeling i get at the end of a kayaking day. There’s a difference.

10. I love to read books about Jesus and God and the whole thing. I love the start doctrinal books, and the emotive books, and the opinion books, and pretty much all of it. I love it.

11. I used to bite my nails. I stopped, cold turkey, when i fell in Love with Dan. I believe that means something.

12. I am bitter and un-forgiving.

13. I love the way i feel after I work out, but I rarely do. I DO NOT like the way i look when i work out. My face gets extremely red and my mouth hangs slightly open, which i find very unattractive.

14. When I look back on my childhood, i realize that i had it made and my parents rocked.

15. I love tv. I love movies. I love the internet. I think it’s stealing my life away though.

16. I think that my diamond ring is pretty much one of the prettiest diamond rings i have ever seen. I love it.

17. I miss being in band. I miss being a part of a musical happening. I miss the music all around me. The ECU symphonic band was one of the most heart-pumping intelligent, musicianship filled ensembles I have ever been a part of and I didnt realize it while i was there. I totally missed it.

18. I love being married. I don’t understand why every other married couple isnt bouncing off the walls with happiness too. Some are but the major majority isnt. I think thats weird.

19. I voted for Kerry almost entirely because Matt Bivins told me too at a show. I think that I was a lame person back in the Jump Little Children days and I wish I could take that vote back simply because it had nothing to do with what i really thought.

20. I love casual comphy clothing and would live in PJ’s if i could. That said, I really wish I was fashionable.

21. I want to live in so many places in the world. Not just visit, but live.

22. If i dont get to Ireland before I die, i will have failed at my dreams.

23. When i have children, I want to have twins. I know it is not something i have any real power over but it is one of the desires of my heart.

24. It bewilders me when people dont believe there is a God. I know that religion bogs things downs, but how could this earth be so amazing, so intricate, so beautiful, without the possibility even, of a creator… its so much more beautiful to believe than to not.

25. I want to become someone that people will always remember and think of with a smile on their faces.