HELLO WORLD!!
A post from Bethany “Classic”, not Bethany of “dbkayak.” Feels rather fine to be that Bethany for a moment here.
Ive been thinking a lot, mostly because I’ve had a LOT of time to think out there on the ocean. Pick a topic, you name it, and I’ve thought about it.
I am feeling rather behind on “me.” Sometimes it feels like I am nothing more than a kayaker, which is so not true. It’s hard to remember what it is like to not be checking the weather all the time, worrying about where we are going to sleep etc etc etc. I really look forward to all the awesomeness that is to come on the rest of the journey but I also really look forward to having a place of our own.
Been thinking a lot about God recently. Wanting to have a real relationship. Dunno. Dan and I are on a quest for faith right now. Really trying to be open to hear god rather than try to find him in the stories we have memorized. We want more real tangible truth that we can really sink our teeth in to you know? Sometimes its even harder for us church kids. Wanting authenticity… not common religion.
Miss normal life but not completely. Hope you are all well.
I love reading your posts on here. I’ve missed them! I think b/c you’ve been so involved w/ your trip, adjusting to marriage, traveling, not being truly “settled”, it can make you feel the way you do. You are more than just some kayaker going after her inspirations, dreams, and desires… Imight not know everything about you, and only you know who you really are… but i also know how wonderful you are. You will get to your final destination soon, and you will get the chance to settle w/ Dan… but you will NEVER forget the awesome experience you’ve had with him, kayaking down the coast. I think the experience of kayaking down the coast is one that can connect you to God and Nature. I find that being in quietude, being connected to the earth brings me closest to God… It’s amazing when in the midst of quiet, God speaks loud and clear. I don’t know how to explain it… Life is about discovering yourself, your Higher Power, and your relationship w/ Him in that self-discovery… You’ll get back to normal soon, and you will appreciate it b/c of the journey you have made. Ok, this comment is a novel. hehehe! <3 you lots.